Dilemma

Do you know I am 15 years old and even though I claim life isn’t as complicated as it seems, one of the perks of being my age is you may be getting randomly stressed or panicked about your future. Now this is completely normal, I think.

The thing is that today as I was pondering on philosophical things of our existence, as one might on a Saturday morning, I realised I wasn’t doing homework or studying at that moment and this made me guilty. Now surely that shouldn’t be right, why should I feel guilty for doing some philosophical thinking? “Because morning is for Physics”, my brain politely explained.

That’s when It hit me – my default state was supposed to be ‘doing H.W.’ or ‘Studying’. If you have perhaps read my earlier blog on parenting, you would know that in my house thinking about butterflies (this is an example, we don’t only think about butterflies. Bees are important too) is preferred over sitting at a table and staring at study books.

Despite that, in the back of my mind, there is always the little guilt that says I should be studying. A tiny bit of backstory here. For a while now  I have decided that I want to grow up and be rich or a famous singer. Go ahead, scoff at my superficial interests but it’s true and I don’t mind admitting it.

But if I want to achieve this dream of mine, will living like the rest of the million children around me work? Should I or should I not feel guilty, every time I sing instead of study?